Arreneow..^_^
It feels great to be free from the pressure of academics... Yet, I miss the hustle and bustle of school.
I miss
....waking at 5am.
....feeling sleepy in English class.
....sleeping in Filipino class.
....getting whacked in Arnis class.
....growing numb in Chemistry class.
....doodling in Math class.
....hanging out in the Sec Walk.
....eating in the Caf (most of the time, Caf Up)
....being (and most likely, sleeping) in the cold periodicals section of the Lib.
....going to CW (Child's World).
....hanging-out with my blockmates.
....Ateneo!^_^
Weird, yes. But I do miss going to that school because, though the academics is cruel, it was fun and exciting going to school. I miss being with people who totally crack me up with their shallow stories and lame jokes. Yes
, mababaw ako!^_^
wrote on { 10:35 PM }
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Tuesday, July 03, 2007
A Hug + Ice Cream = LOVE
I really am feeling dumb for the past days... As in ang "bobo-bobo" ko...
I miss being "smart". Not being too full of myself, but I used to get high scores in my quizzes and high grades in the different subjects. Sa high school, parang kayang-kaya ko talaga maging matalino... Pero sa college, katabi mo ung super talino... Nakaka-insecure tuloy...
I keep on asking myself everyday, "How did you get into Ateneo?" Considering my English and Math classes, I can't fathom why I was accepted in Ateneo. My Fil 11 teacher said that it's either you are good in English or in Math if get accepted in Ateneo... I am in both basic classes for English and Math... So why?? How come I was accepted in Ateneo? I really don't understand...
For the past month, I had been bitter and depressed being in English 10... To add to my "bitterness", my brother, who is in English 11 would ask me to help him with some of his English and Lit. homeworks. Parang sampal sa mukha un... Super...
Just this morning, the results for the diagnostic test was released. Trying to think positive, I had "prepped" myself for the results. I've already told myself (and I wanted to really believe in it) that I will be okay being in Ma 1. Un nga... Math 1 lang ako... I knew it!
Then after that, it dawned unto me that I am really dumb... I really can't understand why I was accepted in Ateneo...
I saw my friends, Krizia and Sarah, and I just hugged them. You know the type of hug when you want to feel loved and assured... I was really feeling depressed, confused and annoyed at the same time. We are all in Ma 1, but both of them are in En 11.
For this sem, I can be a DL because I have basic subjects... Damn!
Before I went home, I ate a sundae in McDo. Ice cream is comfort food... Very... After eating my sundae, I felt better. ^_^
After listening to this song, "How Great is Our God", I felt way much better. It's my favorite YFC song and I really love-love that song. I realized that I shouldn't be moping for not being in En 11 and Ma 11... Maybe "this" is better... I could really "prepare" myself more for all of those "college stuff".
FEELING: a bit depressed and bitter
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: Circle of Life ~ from The Lion King OST
wrote on { 6:10 PM }
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Friday, May 18, 2007
Feeling better...
After hearing from Alyssa... :D
Funny, I thought she'd first reply to my China story, but no... I think I sounded desperate with my second story... boohoo... Oh well...
Besides hearing from Alyssa, I am feeling better because Ijzan called immediately after I told her why I was feeling down the other day... And Ijzan was, I believe, right when she said that person was being
"papansin lang" and
"nakakainis". Because the next day he was smiling and even said "bye" to me (face-to-face), which he doesn't normally do... *sigh*
Feeling better does not mean I am very much happy now...
I am... well... annoyed(?), hurt(?!) when I found out that this person I like so much likes my friend. She's definitely prettier than me, that's for sure. And it really frustrates me that after all this time that I had been nice and friendly, "
dead-ma pa rin siya..."
FEELING: just okay...
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: More than a Woman - Bee Gees
wrote on { 8:18 AM }
aiming for the sky above
Friday, May 04, 2007
China Experience
I miss the weather in Shenzhen, China and Hong Kong. I love the weather there. It's not as hot as here in Manila. It's sunny in Shenzhen, but you wouldn't be sweating like hell there.
But there's nothing like home... For 4 days, I couldn't understand anything, well except for a few characters that I saw. Characters like exit, woman, man, and some numbers, I can understand. The locals would speak Cantonese or Mandarin to you, even if you're a foreigner. One seller there thought I was Indonesian (do I look like Indonesian??) and still kept talking in Mandarin... All I can do there was shake my head and smile.
This week is a not so good week to go there. Because it's their holiday. When May 1, Labour Day comes, it's a one week holiday for them. Unlike here in the Philippines, Labour Day is just a one day vacation. Everywhere we go, there are thousands, even millions of people visiting theme parks, shopping in the night market, riding the train...
We visited this theme park in Shenzhen, HAPPY VALLEY and every ride had many people lining up. I have no patience for those. Good thing we were there early, so my brother, Eggy and I were able to ride Shoot the Chute, the LOG JAM of Happy Valley, even better. I even saw 1 really good-looking guy there. He was tall and chinito and ... drop-dead handsome.. ;-)
Visiting Disneyland Hong Kong was fun. I felt like a kid again. I saw Mickey Mouse and Minnie Mouse, but I wasn't able to have a photo with them. Disneyland Hong Kong is really for kids. KIDDIE PARK. There are not much of big rides there. And the fireworks... it was just okay... I've seen a better fireworks display... 2007 PyroOlympics: Philippine exhibition (rocks!!).
We were brought to 3 jewelry shops, but I wasn't able to buy anything. Honestly, the pieces there are not as beautiful as those jewelries I saw in Bangkok.
~will post pictures in my Multiply later...
FEELING: unexplainably happy
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: Frozen - Madonna
wrote on { 9:15 AM }
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